I’m feeling more in control of my life than I ever have. Then again, I also feel more like a person and less polite, more authentic.
I used to believe people’s words a lot more than I do now. I pay more attention to how their actions match it. I make better decisions as a result. It feels pretty groovy.
Since clearing out my space (a whole one day), it feels a lot lighter and I don’t feel as cluttered when I come home now. Since a while, I feel calm at home.
I have a dear friend who teaches me what close to unconditional love is and it’s coming from a more genuine spot for them than it has all these years I’ve known them because they’re not as closed off of a person as they used to be. I’m super appreciated of that.
My gratitude app has been helping rebuild my spirits to keep from feeling super shitty over trivial things by keeping grateful for even the smallest happy moments in my day-to-day life. Lame as shit and I’m totally ok with that.
I can’t wait to get my hair cut and probably permed. I fucking love a good perm game because I’m fundamentally lazy. I just need the time and it will happen.
Lately I’ve been writing posts and then just trashing them. But at least I’m writing?
Pumpkin beer season is upon us. It will be the best of me.
I can’t wait to get back to the gym and work towards getting stronger again. Probably redeem myself at the next meet.
Big things are a-coming. Get ready.
I’m also lowkey appreciative of the situation I’ve got going on. The level of respect for the other person while keeping it hella simple is pretty bomb. I haven’t had this much of a great time without having to think in a long, long time.